Remembering the People I Love

i just read someone's blog. and the story is about the same as mine last year. i found out that everybody has their own problem. i was so stressed out last year just because three people i love was passed away. i've been thinking of why. but somehow it's just lead me to the saddest moment i've ever had. you just need to let them go, right? but it's not that simple when it comes to the people you love. but then God has their own way to show His love to us, right? all we can do is just hope and pray. believe that the sadness will go away as the time goes by.

the Ramadhan and syawal makes me remember about those three people. Amih, Om Tedi, and Adrian. i thought they're gone too soon. but i realized that nothing's better than God's plan. i have to stay strong and still support my grandpa about this kind of things. actually, today is one year my Amih passed away. i thank God i was there on her funeral. we all there. i love her so much. i cried a lot when she said to my autie that she wouldn't be there for our wedding. and it's true. i feel sad. but still have to get the positive thought.

yesterday when Ied day, we gathered at Mbah's house at Cimahi. it actually a good times. all cousins, aunts, uncles gathered together to have apologize to each other. i feel happy because Mbah still sehat though he has a little bit of cough and stomachache. but it was good that he was seeing us at his house. surrounded him by love. that's what he need after Amih's gone. Mbah loves Amih so much. i wanna be like them someday. never leave each other though they sometimes had a fight. hope me and abaang could do what Amih and Mbah did. they still love each other until death do them apart.

last but not least, hope they have a better place now. i miss them a lot. :')

Suddenly, I miss BNE :'(

As mentioned above, i really miss my time at BNE. i feel those times are the best time in my life. even i could gain 7kilos of my weight. i was so happy. no need to feel bad. although i have to face the distance. in the other side, all those things were going so great. i wish i could go back to UQ. feel its great court with the clean grass, walked around the hall with the hazelnut hot chocolate in my right hand and my bag in my left hand, got halal food at the canteen, took business law courses at the theater.   gosh, i miss any little thing there.

went to the city when i have nothing to do. eat himawari for my lunch or just grabbed two or three sushi. ran after watched movies to the city cat because it's already late, went to the halal market at china town, went around south bank, i could say 'gue kangen akut sama brisbane'. i wish i could turned back the time just to feel those kind of moments once again.

hopefully, i could go there next year. before i've got a baby. :)

Amin.

heyhooo... i wanna say something to someone.

"kindly please stay away. it's not gonna change if you still hold on with the one who already long gone. so move on baby. i believe you'll be better. got it darling?".

see you when i see you :)

My Other Blog

Hi Guys,

check this link.. this is my other blog, which i already promised to publish it after April 2012. sorry for the late... but it's better late than never righ? :)

Another Blog

i always love this line from AADC Movie "jika emosi mengalahkan logika, terbukti banyakan ruginya kan?!'

Random Post

It's been a long time since i really write something here. It's like i've got no time for this. i don't know why. seems i just don't have any passion to write whatever i wanna write. many things came up in my life lately. i really can't explain each detail of it. umh.. btw, i write in my other blog. but i haven't published it yet. i promised to myself to publish it within the next two month. maybe some of you may know what is it, but some aren't. yeah, just be patience guys. i'll let you know what it is when the time is right. :)

i just don't want to rush the things. what will it be, just let it be. now i'm just focusing on my job, my family and also my relationship with abaang. somehow, things are going so hard. but then i realized that life is just like a roller coaster. there's a time when you can get that high, also the otherwise. i'm enjoying every part of it now. thanking God with new friends, old best friends and families, also one guy who stand beside me for whatever it is.

so sorry should this post isn't fun at all. i'm just came up with these words tonight. i am happy lately. just remind me about my other blog to publish if i haven't publish it yet till April.

aku masih simpan kisah malam itu
di saat indah matamu buka hatiku
merasakan getar cintaku kembali
jiwa ini tlah sempurna karena aku punya kamu

reff:
sayang selama ini kau kemana
seumur hidup ku mencari
tuk jatuh cinta terakhir itu kamu
cinta tak pernah terbayang olehku
indahnya rasa yang kau beri
saat ku menemukanmu
hati ini tlah hidup sendiri

kau angkat aku jadi lebih jauh
yang tak akan pernah mampu aku hadapi
di saat cintamu selamatkan aku
jiwa ini tlah sempurna karena aku punya kamu (kamu)

repeat reff [2x]

sayang selama ini kau kemana
seumur hidup ku mencari
tuk jatuh cinta terakhir itu kamu